So I'm pretty sure I O'd a few days ago. I've been thinking about it a lot lately and if this isn't my month... I'm done "trying". I'm not giving up in any way, shape or form. But for once I feel like I need to take a break from it all and focus on other things in my life. I want to be happy and I want to have a happy life again outside of the craziness of TTCAL. So what does this mean exactly? Well I will still be posting on JM (I love my family there), I also applied to be a co-host for the board. I love knowing I can help people through the horrible time that I went through myself. I'm *hiding* my OPK's & HPT's after this month. So what will be, will be. But at this point... I'm over it.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
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I completely understand where you are coming from. I threw out my BBT and had DH hide my OPK's and HPT's a while back. I just can't do it anymore. I can't obssess about it all the time. I rarely ever know what cycle day I am on anymore... (I think like 16 or 17 right now, so we are close)and I am much more relaxed this way. I am able to focus on other things. I'm able to start moving on and preparing myself for the possibility that I might not be meant to have a rainbow.
I hope that you do get your rainbow this time. I really do. No one should ever have to go through what we have gone through when it comes to loss and TTCAL.
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